Sunday, 14 August 2016

Sometimes Life Gets Really Really Hard

I don't even know where to begin with this blog post.
This is my third time attempting to write it, the first time I thought I was being too much of a downer, the second because I felt like I was oversharing. Life has basically just been really, really hard this year and if I'm being completely honest I feel a bit lost right now.
I've been dealing with severe cystic acne since a pill I was prescribed back in January brought it all back after years of fighting it. I've barely been leaving the house because I feel so disgusting and embarrassed by my skin right now. I thought if I came off that pill and let my hormones settle down then my skin would clear up but it's been over 6 months now and my skin is still just as bad. Sometimes a product will calm it down for a while but then it always comes back no matter what I do. I've stopped seeing my friends as much because of how disgusting my skin makes me feel and I even avoided going to my university lectures if I could manage it.
Dealing with the acne was bad enough on it's own, but then as you all already know, my little yorkshire terrior Pippin passed away in May. It was honestly one of the saddest times of my life. It still is. Even now I can't help getting upset when I come home and he's not there to greet me or when the postman arrives and he's not going crazy barking at the window. I had started this year so incredibly happy but by this point I honestly thought it couldn't get much worse.
Then, at the end of July, my boyfriend and I broke up. I can't believe I'm even writing those words because I honestly never thought I would be. As much as I know it came from a good place and he was as kind and wonderful as ever, I can't help but be heartbroken. For the last two and a half years I've been in such a happy routine seeing him almost every day and now that routine has ended and I don't know what to do. I miss him and I miss our relationship.
These last few weeks have been the toughest I think. All three of these crappy things all piled on top of each other at once have left me feeling like I'm stuck in a massive dark hole that I can't climb out of. Most days I struggle to even get dressed and I certainly don't leave the house.
I'm sorry that I'm being incredibly negative right now, it's not something I usually do but right now I can't fake happiness. I need to pull myself out of this dark hole bit by bit and I'm not quite sure how to do that yet. I hope this explains why there hasn't been any posts on this blog since the July roundup. As much as I absolutely hate not posting anything, I just really need to take some time to sort myself out first. My friend says bad things happen in three's so I'm absolutely praying that that's it for me now. I'm not sure when I'll resume posting regularly on this blog but hopefully it won't be too long. Maybe I can start fresh at the beginning of September, I don't know. If anybody reading this is going through a crappy time right now, please feel free to comment or email me so I don't feel like the only one. 
I'm really hoping this pretty dark time in my life lightens up soon and I can start to get back to normality.


Sunday, 31 July 2016

July Roundup | 2016

I know everyone says this, but I can't believe we're into the second half of the year already. It's actually quite scary how quickly time can go, one minute I was planning my new year goals, the next it's 7 months in and I have no idea what I've spent all that time doing. I guess realising that time goes quickly kind of gives you another kick up the bum to get things done. I definitely need to take that on board and start spending my time more wisely, so instead of saying 'hopefully' like I always do, I WILL make august a more productive month!

I finished re-reading the 5th Harry Potter book this month and am now onto the 6th one, Half-Blood Prince! After the 800 pages in TOOTP, this one feels much easier to read so I'm aiming to finish it by the end of next week and finally start the last one and finish re-reading the series! 

I know I mentioned a few months back that I was having an MCR binge but recently I've literally been listening to them non-stop. The little teaser they released a week or so ago got my hopes up so high for a reunion but unfortunately that's not happening! The song I've been listening to the most is Planetary (Go!), it never fails to get me up dancing and feeling motivated!

I saw two new films at the cinema this month. One called Central Intelligence with Kevin Hart and The Rock which was so good! It was so strange seeing Kevin Hart as the serious character and The Rock being the crazy funny guy but it worked so well, the film is a great comedy and I would highly recommend it if you're looking for a laugh! The other film was of course, Me Before You. I read the book a few years ago and absolutely loved it so obviously I had to go and see the film. Oh my goodness I cried like a baby. Emilia Clarke and Sam Claflin are insanely good at playing Will and Louisa, they're hilarious together and work so well. This film will grab your heart, smush it with love and then crush it into pieces... go and see it!

This month has been quite a slow one in the fact that I've been finding it hard to find motivation from anywhere. I think sleep may be quite a big factor as I've been struggling to get into a good sleeping pattern and also the weather plays quite a large part in my motivation. I'm an autumn/winter girl and I feel my best when I wake up to a crisp autumn morning so all this sticky summer heat with all rain and no sunshine isn't the best! Saying that though I have had some lovely days this month. I've been to a few house parties thrown by family and friends and I also travelled to Sheffield for the day to go to the theatre (post on that HERE). 

I've made quite a bit of progress with one goal in particular this month, which is my patchwork quilt! I've been knitting like crazy and my gran has been sewing a few of the pieces together so it's finally starting to look like an actual blanket! I've done okay for reading this month but I'm really hoping to get going on writing in August, I want to get as much done as I can before I'm back at uni!

6 Books You Should Read This Summer
Barry M Coconut Infusion Nail Polishes
Top 10 Disney Classics
20 Things I Learnt In My First Year At University
A Weekend In Lytham St Annes
Lush Tea Tree Toner Water
5 Easy Ways To Eat More Healthy
A Trip To The Theatre | Chitty Chitty Bang Bang

How has July been for you?


Wednesday, 27 July 2016

A Trip To The Theatre | Chitty Chitty Bang Bang

It's becoming quite a regular occurrence now that myself and my friend Natalie plan a little day trip to a different city and go to see a theatre show. Back in January I took her to see Les Mis in London and we loved it so much that we decided it was time for another trip!
This time we travelled to Sheffield to go and see the show Chitty Chitty Bang Bang. This was a much shorter train journey with Sheffield being only 50 minutes away rather than 2 and a half hours like London was, so we had a lot more time to explore the city! We checked out a beautiful cathedral where people were just relaxing on the grass and enjoying the sunshine, before settling down in a little cafe across from the theatre for some lunch. Before we knew it it was 2pm and time to see the show! 
Chitty Chitty Bang Bang is absolutely fantastic! Literally, I had a smile on my face the entire way through. It's an incredibly fun show and I actually found it a lot funnier than the film (although of course the film is still one of a kind). All of the actors were utterly amazing but the two that really stood out to me were the people playing Baron Bomburst's spies! They were absolutely hilarious from start to finish and brilliant singers. Of course Carrie Fletcher was amazing as well, that girl always is! I would honestly recommend going to see Chitty Chitty Bang Bang if you get the chance. It's an amazing show and it's made me fall in love with the theatre all over again. I can't wait to book my next show!

Do you enjoy going to the theatre? What's your favourite show?


Sunday, 24 July 2016

5 Easy Ways To Eat More Healthy

I am a sucker for junk food. Crisps, chocolate, cake... I want it all! But as much as I enjoy indulging in these foods, in the long run it's probably not the best food I can be giving my body. I decided I wanted to eat more healthy but knew I couldn't switch to a completely healthy diet straight away, so instead I decided to just change certain aspects of my eating habits until eventually I fall into a routine that is much better for me. I thought I would share with you guys some of the things I've been doing in order to eat a bit better and look after my body more!

Bread, rice, pasta... anything where you can switch to a 'wholewheat' version, do it! I used to think that wholewheat rice tasted really bland and didn't have as much flavour in it, but after making the switch and continuing to eat that every time we have a rice or pasta dish, I eventually became used to it and now I don't actually like any of the white products. Funny how that works!

Although dark chocolate isn't exactly healthy, it's much better to eat than milk and white chocolate! I am a complete chocolate face and I need my chocolate fix after meals so I switched to buying dark chocolate bars and I have a few squares with a cup of green tea after my evening meals. It satisfies my craving for a dessert without me over indulging and eating a whole share bag of cadbury's buttons...!

Smoothies are an amazing way to get goodness into you. My favourite smoothie to make is a mixed berry and banana smoothie which you can check out the blog post for HERE! There are quite a few fruits and vegetables out there that I don't like because of the texture, so I find that chucking them into my nutribullet and blending it together to make a smoothie that I like the flavour of is a great way of getting the benefits without having to munch away on food I don't like! Plus, drinking a smoothie full of blended fruit/veg is apparently a lot easier for our bodies to digest and get nutrients from than eating the food whole (correct me if I'm wrong!)

Myself and my mum try to meal plan on a monday evening all of the tea's we're going to eat during the week! Sometimes we do really well and eat a healthy cooked meal every night, other weeks we skip a day and end up buying something pre-cooked from the supermarket which is never the healthiest. Sitting down and working out what you want to eat for the week will help so much in getting good foods into you, rather than buying something in a rush on the day. Also this will definitely help to save money as well!

Every week pick a fruit or vegetable that you've never had before and try it out. There are so many foods out there that I just say I 'don't like' when in reality I've not actually tried most of them! This way you might discover an ingredient that you adore and you'll be able to create a more varied diet with the new foods you'll discover! 

How do you stay healthy? Do you have any tips on eating better?


Wednesday, 20 July 2016

Lush Tea Tree Toner Water

Lush Tea Tree toner water is a product that I've seen floating around the blogging and youtube world for a while now, with lots of people saying how helpful it is for problem skin. Given that I've been struggling with my skin for quite a few months now I am currently trying every product under the sun so of course I popped into my nearest Lush and picked up the smaller bottle to test out and see if it worked for me!
I've been using this product in between my cleanser and moisturiser every morning and night for around 2 months now and honestly... I could not sing its praises enough! Oh my goodness this product has been my absolute life saver. As you can see from the picture above, the minute I finished the first bottle I headed straight out and bought the larger one, which is now my staple product in my skincare routine. I spray the product directly on to a cotton pad and wipe this in circular motions all over my face but also focusing more on my problem areas, i.e. chin and cheeks!
It works by drying out and cleaning your problem areas and I honestly saw results over night. I woke up with my cystic jawline acne significantly reduced and as I've used this more and more my breakouts haven't been anywhere near as bad as they once were. I adore using this product and will probably never switch to another toner again! Plus Lush are completely cruelty free which is the best bonus to a product ever!
The only thing I will say is please don't purchase this product expecting to have flawless skin within a week. Problem skin just doesn't work like that and my skin is still far from where I want it to be, I still struggle with acne and large pores in my t-zone! This product won't cure your acne but hopefully it could help in reducing it and calming down large painful breakouts quickly. I started using this product in the week leading up to my sisters wedding and I managed to reduce most of my breakouts before the big day! It works brilliantly in reducing the amount of oil my skin produces over night to help prevent me waking up with brand new breakouts! 
If you have problem skin and haven't yet tried any products using tea tree then I would 100% recommend trying this product. With it being a toner water it doesn't have that incredibly strong tea tree smell and it just feels so fresh! 
As much as I love this product I don't want to promise that it will work for you as everybodys skin is different and what works for me might not work for you, but I would definitely recommend you try this out if you're struggling with acne. I was getting to the point where I had tried every product under the sun and nothing was working, until I found this! Just keep going, eventually you will find something that works for your skin and hopefully this product might be it! 

Have you tried out this product? Did it work for you?

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