Monday, 30 May 2016

The Worst Month | May 2016

May was horrible. Absolutely horrible. You can probably guess by my complete lack of blog posts this month that life hasn't been going to plan and I do apologise to the people who read my blog for not uploading very much. 
This month started off with me catching a bug that had me up all night unable to sleep and unable to eat anything. What made it worse was that I caught this bug only a few days before one of my university deadlines, which meant that any time I had where I wasn't being sick, I was trying to desperately get a 2500 word essay written. The following week then brought with it two more deadlines and lots more stress. I managed to meet all of my deadlines but it meant that this blog has been neglected for a while.
Then the worst happened.
On Sunday 22nd May *technically the 23rd as it was around 2am*, my dog Pippin passed away. If you read my blog regularly you will have seen the post I did at the start of this month introducing him to you guys, as he had just reached his 14th birthday *read that post HERE*. 
This past week has been awful. It feels like we've lost a member of our family and we have spent most days either in tears or just trying to find the energy to get washed and dressed. Yesterday was the first day that I haven't cried and even that feels wrong, like I should still be in floods of tears over losing my best friend. We've had Pippin since I was 7 years old and I cannot remember what the house was like before him. It feels empty and wrong and like he needs to come back and fill it again. It felt like I'd grown up with him as a member of our family and now that he's gone I can't imagine how the house will ever feel normal again.
I hope those of you out there who have had pets and lost them will understand how this feels and how heartbreaking it is. I can't go a day without wishing I could take him out in the sunshine or mess around with his toys or stroke his fluffy belly. Everyone is telling me it will get easier each day, and I can only hope they're right because right now it hurts every second I think about him. 
I am going to try and get back on schedule with my blog posts in June. I need something to keep my mind busy now that university has finished for the summer, but please bear with me if my blog posts are a bit sparse. I hope the people that read my blog are here because they genuinely enjoy it and will stick around with me whilst I try and get back to normal.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.



  1. Oh my gosh... Pippin was so adorable, I'm so sorry! It'll take a while to get used to him not being around as much, but just remember that it's all okay because you've got loads of wonderful memories with him! I love reading your blog posts so I hope you do continue to blog, but I understand that it will take some time for you to get back on track with your schedule! Have a great day!
    Aleeha xXx

    1. Thank you! Your comment honestly means so much, it's so lovely to hear someone say such nice things xxx

  2. I'm really sorry to hear that you have had a horrible May. Loosing someone you care and love is always so hard, I remember when my pet passed as well. I really hope June brings brighter days for you.
    - Ambar x | Her Little Loves

    1. Thank you! That really means a lot! xxx